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Mars Enters Cancer

So, I am still accomplishing zilch for the day and still reading astrological crap to pass the time and avoid actually going postal. And Austin Coppock says Mars is leaving Gemini and entering Cancer on June 4th. He links to his writing about what it means for Mars to be in Cancer, supposedly its weakest position.

Cancer is supposedly a weak sign for Mars. It is the "fall" for Mars. This is an aspect of astrology I don't know much about, but I find what I am reading laughable so far:
What is the conflict between the nature of Mars and the circumstance that Cancer represents? Mars’ nature brings about and resolves conflict. He symbolizes the necessary desire of every individual to burst their confines and establish themselves as independent, reliant only upon their own will. This desire to burst forth from behind confines has its primordial beginning with the desire to escape the womb and extends to rarefied spiritual peaks, with the desire to escape the confines of…

June

I have been repeatedly assured money is coming, but it is not here yet. I have overdrawn my account to feed us today, expecting to get the money today. The latest message is "hopefully tomorrow." And I am worried I will be incurring overdraft charges, which I can't afford, but I don't know what else I could have done.

It is the last day of the month and Astrology Zone does not post new updates until the first or later of the new month. But, I am in luck. Austin Coppock posts them the last day of the previous month. So I can actually read some stuff and try to convince myself that my life isn't coming completely unraveled and imploding at this very minute. June's forecast starts thusly:
June begins with a series of broadly fortunate changes. Venus and Mercury both return home to signs they rule, and the greater benefic, Jupiter, stations direct. The winds here are strong, but favorable.
Oh, goodie. Some good astrological news to latch onto like an opiate…

Memorial Day

I will be offline tomorrow due to it being Memorial Day. The library will be closed and I will be broke and I don't have any Starbuck's cards or whatever, so I won't be able to go get online at Starbuck's (at least, as things stand currently).

We will be very light rationed tomorrow, which is partly due to lack of funds, partly by choice. I have a small amount of money coming that should hit my bank account Tuesday. That will let us eat Tuesday.

Someone has offered to give me a few bucks. If that comes through, I will probably be okay this week.

Perhaps that will turn out to be the positive opposing force I need. Though I don't yet have the money, the offer is helping me not freak the fuck out today. Yesterday, I realized that the third is a Saturday, which might delay my alimony until the fifth. So I was freaking out after I realized that. That could potentially add three more days to my NOT HAVING MONEY stretch.

But I have done enough work that I will pro…

Let's Try This One More Time, But With Some Astrology

Yesterday's post started with this: According to the Aries forecast for May on Astrology Zone: Mars, your ruler, will make another supportive aspect on May 30, when Mars reaches out in a friendly way to surprise-a-minute Uranus.Austin Coppock gives a little more detail:
Mars will make an empowering, if somewhat volatile sextile to Uranus, but will oppose Saturn, a much more difficult arrangement. Mars and Saturn are perfectly opposed early on the 29th, but their angle will be felt for several days on each side of this date, particularly on the 26th. The post then kind of went off the rails as I began ranting like a lunatic cuz REASONS, what with my life being insanely stressful. The real reason I was looking at the above is because, yeah, my life is in the damn toilet right now and I am on track to starve for about 6 days, starting Saturday. So I am hoping for a hint of what is coming that might imply "No, you don't necessarily have to starve." Because I would …

Mars Sextile Uranus, Opposite Saturn

According to the Aries forecast for May on Astrology Zone: Mars, your ruler, will make another supportive aspect on May 30, when Mars reaches out in a friendly way to surprise-a-minute Uranus.Austin Coppock gives a little more detail:
Mars will make an empowering, if somewhat volatile sextile to Uranus, but will oppose Saturn, a much more difficult arrangement. Mars and Saturn are perfectly opposed early on the 29th, but their angle will be felt for several days on each side of this date, particularly on the 26th.
I am basically grasping at straws. I essentially need a fucking miracle. I am all out of ability to pull miracles out my ass. Even if I manage to do substantial paid work this week, the holiday on Monday will delay my paycheck.

So, I am basically screwed for this weekend, no matter what I fucking do. And I am so fucking sick of living this way, where pulling one miracle out my ass after another is never enough and the universe won't cut me ANY goddamn slack at all.

Cardinal, Fixed, Mutable

Upon a quick search, I am seeing other astrologers call this various different things, like mode, modality or quadruplicity. This makes me feel better about not knowing what to call this. Unlike the elements, there may be no universally agreed upon term for what to call Cardinal, Fixed and Mutable. I called them types in my rough draft. Let's go with that for now.

The astrological signs are divided up into four elements and three types. The elements are (in order of appearance) Fire, Earth, Air and Water. The types are Cardinal, Fixed and Mutable.

Notice that 3*4=12. There are 12 signs. The four elements repeat in order three times. The three types repeat in order four times. The end result is that each sign has a unique pair of these two different traits.

Aries: Cardinal FireTaurus: Fixed EarthGemini: Mutable AirCancer: Cardinal WaterLeo: Fixed FireVirgo: Mutable EarthLibra: Cardinal AirScorpio: Fixed WaterSagittarius: Mutable FireCapricorn: Cardinal EarthAquarius: Fixed AirPi…

Upcoming New Moon at 5 Degrees of Gemini

I am exhausted. If you are one of the handful of people who follows my health blogs, you will be aware of "The 48 Hour Rule" which was last night for a lot of drama that happened on Thursday with me going to the hospitel. And if you aren't, well, bah, humbug.

Because I am so tired and recovering from health drama, I am basically trying to keep myself entertained by dicking around online. I am not up to doing anything productive, like work. Ugh.

Here is a quote from the May predictions for Virgo from Astrology Zone:
The most important new moon May 25 at Gemini, 5 degrees, will energize your tenth house of honors, awards, and achievement. This will be the first and only time in 2017 that a new moon will stimulate this house, so if you are anxious to make a move up the ladder of success, the days that follow this new moon will be your time to take action. Mars will allow you to make contacts all month, but it will be after May 26 that you will start to get the serious o…

Late Breaking Trine News

Reddit has launched a beta test of user profiles. This is Big. REALLY BIG.

I have signed up. Here is my profile description:

I AM THE MOTHER OF THE FUTURE. NO NEED TO FEAR ME. I COME IN PEACE. But do check my blogs: http://micheleincalifornia.blogspot.com/p/my-sites.html Kaythxbai

Sadly, I cannot get logged into my moderator tools to edit it. Let's hope that changes soon.

Let's also hope they don't decide to go "Nope! Get the fuck out!"

That would be Sad. VERY SAD.

On the Other Side of the Trine

So, while at the hotel, with newfound knowledge that my recent wifi problems might be partly on my end, I uninstalled a couple of recently acquired (large) games that I had not ever really played. My hypothesis was that it was the biggest recent change in about the right time frame that might account for the problem. After rebooting, I did see moderate improvement.Back at the library this afternoon, the matter got discussed with one of my sons and we decided to uninstall my city building game that hogs so many resources, makes the tablet run so hot that my son frets it might damage it and has been resetting to an earlier point in the game enough to make me feel like throwing the tablet across the room. After a reboot, yes, I could get online again at the library. It was spotty and slow, but functional.We never did do lunch. None of us was hungry at lunchtime. We put off our main meal of the day until dinner time. I had a single slice of pizza, some soda and some jerky and potato chips…

Evening Update

I have showered, put on new clothes, eaten and brushed teeth. In the last hour, muscle stiffness and soreness has begun to set in. This is unexpected.I am tired and I do not feel great, but I have stopped feeling horrible. More importantly, I am no longer suicidal.Cystic Fibrosis significantly impacts epithelial cells. This includes skin. I sloughed shocking amounts of skin while showering and also while toweling off afterwards. I often slough skin, but this was pretty extreme. This is apparently why I have felt so grimy and it has been impacting my mood and mental function. Skin is the largest organ of the human body. People often underestimate its importance.In some ways, the day went surprisingly smoothly. This is consistent with the trine influence. Some things that went smoothly:We were up fairly early. I threw up early. The decision to go to a hotel happened early. We got here and got checked in early.The bus ride down went quickly, in part because it was practically empty. Only…

Uranus: Expect the Unexpected

So, today is the big trine. I very suddenly decided to go to a hotel. For me, this is sort of the equivalent of a hospital stay. In fact, when talking about hotel stays with my sons, I have a tendency to say stuff like "Our last hosp...hotel stay..." We joke that they are hospitels.I am here because I am in crisis.I have been wanting a shower for about three weeks and my nerves have been pretty frayed, in part because of my physical state and not being clean. Then, yesterday I went to Starbuck's. They did not have my usual sandwich in shop. I ordered something I have never had before, some kind of bacon, egg and cheddar croissant. After eating it, I felt terrible. But more than that, I have been suicidal ever since. I had some Reese's Cups last night and that helped. I feel less awful, but I still feel pretty bad. I had a mocha frap this morning with my usual sandwich: bacon, egg and gouda on ciabata bread. I threw up not long after.At that point, I told my son "…

Uranus Saturn Trine at 26 Degrees

This past week has not gone at all like I thought it might. I had some good short term news over the weekend in the form of a couple of small windfalls. I also was able to work over the weekend. With all that, on Sunday I was very hopeful that I would just come up with the money I need for next week by working and everything would be cool. The possibility of getting through the month without a payday loan was looking less like crazy talk.

Today, I am feeling like I probably cannot make it to the end of the month without a pay day loan, but I am glad we at least were able to delay it a bit. That will at least make the rest of the month less dicey and less stressful, though it still feels kind of like a punch in the gut to be expecting to have to go that route after spending a few days with things looking up and me hopeful it would go differently.

Austin Coppock says the following about Uranus and Saturn: The second exact trine is on May 18th, with the two at 26 degrees. If I am r…

Betting on Lucky Jupiter?

According to the May forecast for Gemini on Astrology Zone:

You will have an extraordinary day, Friday, May 12, when sexy Mars in Gemini will reach out to Jupiter, the good fortune planet, now based in your fifth house of true love – this is a day to circulate socially, for sure.
Well, that's good. I need an extraordinary day, but I need it financially.

I have enough money for today. If I don't get some kind of stroke of good fortune, I will be short on cash tomorrow. I should have a few more bucks Saturday because my paycheck should hit my bank account.

One of the things Pluto can describe is "will to power." I have been trying to focus on that expression of it. I managed to buckle down and do some paid work on Monday, which is why I have a paycheck at all this week. But I have serious health issues, so that "will to power" shit tends to be of limited use for me.

Yesterday, for the first time ever in my life, I bought a couple of lottery tickets bec…

May 9th

Aries May forecast on Astrology Zone says: ... May 9 ... will also bring good news. Oh, HA HA HA HA HA!!!!

No, the news today is that I am realizing my ID expires next month and so does that of my oldest son. This is just another expense and hassle that I don't really feel up to coping with. I don't have the fucking money, but if we don't do this, then we are screwed. We no longer have copies of our birth certificates and it takes photo ID to get birth certificates.

No, seriously, I am supposed to be dead and I really wish I were. This shithole of a life on this shithole of a planet surrounded by shitastic people, horrible bureaucratic rules and on and on....this is bullshit. There is no reason I should want to endure any more of this.

No, we can't renew online because we have a different address than is on our IDs. No, I don't see the point in jumping through additional hoops to try to qualify for the low income discount by spending no doubt hours/days try…

Hang Time

I am not immediately seeing any astrological events listed on either Astrology Zone nor Austin Coppock for today. I seem to be in something of an astrological dead zone. And it feels like a dead zone, like the fucking Doldrums where sailing ships would get stuck and die back in the day because of the utter lack of wind.The most immediately relevant things seem to be Mercury turning direct on May 3rd and some stuff happening on May 9th, like the North and South Nodes changing signs and Mercury hitting exact conjunction again with Uranus. This conjunction started some days back, then Mercury retrograded away from it, and will soon be back again. Mercury and Uranus are both strong influences in my life. As previously mentioned, I have a metric fuckton of astrological influences in both Gemini and Virgo. Both signs are ruled by Mercury.In my natal chart, there is a bunch of stuff very close to exactly 11 degrees. This includes my Rising Sign in Aries, a Mercury-Jupiter conjunction in Gemi…

The Pluto Influence at the Full Moon This Month

From the May forecast for Aries (my Rising Sign) on Astrology Zone: Pluto, the powerhouse planet, will also send help to you at the full moon May 10, and that’s significant because Pluto is based in your tenth house of honors, awards, and achievement. It appears a VIP, who will be the personification of Pluto, will see to it that you are paid well... You seem to be in line for a large lump sum, and that might be a bonus, commission, royalty, or back pay...
Oh, I wish! This sort of shit always gives me stupid fantasies of some kind of actual justice in my life for REASONS. But, ha ha ha ha ha, no. I don't think so. No VIP will ever give a flying fuck about me. Not happening.

I am hoping the Full Moon on May 10th is good news for me. But I am not really expecting it to play out like this.

I (we) have entered some contests. I am hoping one of them pays off this month, but I don't really expect that to happen either. I never seem to win anything. However, that seems far mor…

Mercury Stations Direct

There is always a lot of static surrounding the point at which a planet changes directions. It is at its worst the day of the event, but you an assume things will be bumpy for two or three days both before and after.

I have a fuckton of astrological influences in both Gemini and Virgo. I think each has four important points. They are both ruled by Mercury.

So, when Mercury changes directions, it shows. My life gets fucked with, usually in a low level, mostly aggravating way.

Historically, I have tended to get my alimony on the third business day of the month. My previous bank was real bad about delaying this until some time between the 4th and the 6th if any of the first three days were holidays or fell on a weekend. I changed banks at some point and I began getting my money more reliably on the 3rd.

This year, I have started getting it on the 2nd business day. The first time this happened, I got it about 5 p.m. on the 3rd because the 1st had been a holiday. I think this was …

May 2017

From Austin Coppock (though, at the moment, I am getting error messages concerning the security certificate of this site): Saturn and Uranus will remain within 10 degrees of a trine throughout 2017. Their first perfect aspect occurs at the very end of 2016, on December 24th, with both planets at 20 degrees. The second exact trine is on May 18th, with the two at 26 degrees. The third and final exact aspect will be on November 11th, at 25 degrees of Sagittarius and Aries, respectively.
My Christmas in December 2016 went spectacularly well. I got to spend two nights in a hotel instead of just one because rates were crazy low. I can't remember what else went on, but I remember it being an amazingly good couple of days and I made note of it being influenced by this trine at the time.

I have natal Mars at 20 degrees Virgo and my natal Moon is at 26 degrees Virgo. So I expect this to be another really good and powerful influence for me. I am very much looking forward to May 18th.